What if life..had background music?

I personally love music..i think it's the finest art that has ever been discovered..and the most divine language..being used..

If you've played enough computer games..or even watched enough tv or movies..you'll know what im talking about..

Background music..
Imagine a life..where music is played according to your mood..in your own head..and your emotions can adjust the volume..in your head..

Ive started to really appreciate classical music these days..classical music..including music from the baroque..classical and romantic..mainly romantic period..
Im absolutely stunned by how composers can write such..beautiful music in so many parts..and many of them..flawless..
For example one of my favourite pieces if the Piano Concerto No. 2 by Rachmaninoff...
This song..is so..mystical..
Every instrument comes in at the right time..playing the right things..making the song sound absolutely..heavenly..
A clarinet comes in half way through the song and plays a short 2 second part..but without that clarinet..i know the song would be different..
And amazing how Rach can write so many parts..so many instruments..

Another of my favourite composers is Yiruma..
I'm sure many of you have heard of Yiruma..
The korean pianist and songwriter Yiruma writes music..that makes you want to fall in love the instant you listen to it..

The music is written with simplicity..easy melody lines..and easy bass lines..but behind those lines of music..gives you the free-will to imagine..imagine scenery..imagine a scene in your life..imagine the good times you've had..


I strongly believe thats what the power of music has..
It has the power to create..and change..
"When all words fail..music speaks"

So about life with background music..
Imagine you..driving or walking along the countryside..and soft..music comes in..
Or when your about to receive your exam marks..and like..music from Saw 2 comes in..
I find it amusing..and yes..i am easily amused..
But now..imagine..
Your with that special someone..looking into their eyes..theres fireworks going on inside of you..inside..your jumping up and down..and cant settle still..

And your favourite love song comes into place..

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will takeYou in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes
Each loving day
I know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..This I promise you..

Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...
And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you

"That Time will come and take my love away. This thought is as a death which cannot choose, But weep to have that which it fears to lose."

Lately i have been studying a few poems by Shakespeare..i know a lot of you out there hate this man..but when you take some time..and actually learn to appreciate it..i think you will really like it..

"That Time will come and take my love away. This thought is as a death which cannot choose, But weep to have that which it fears to lose."

That line up there is one of my favourite lines in all of Shakespeares poem..

After spending the weekend with you..or basically almost the whole week with you..i've really learnt many things about you..i didn't ask you any questions about yourself..but was able to figure out things for myself..but of all things..ive learnt that losing you wasnt an option..
Seeing that smile on your face because of others happiness..fills my heart with warmth..
Eventhough it was freezing cold..your smile never ceases to make me feel warm..
Your smile is contagious..making everyone around you feel happy..and feel as though life is just full of happiness and laughter..

The way you talk to people..the way you express yourself..
Though many times things don't come your way..you still take it in..and vent it on something else..( occasionally slapping me..)
Though there was things you don't know..i see you standing there with interest in your eyes..and many times eagerly wanting to learn..
Though sometimes the weather may be cold..you are not afraid to give your jacket to someone else who is in greater need..

But i also know that there are times when people fall down..and need someone to turn to..
So remember that..
When things don't come your way..i will always be here for you to talk to..or sometimes..to slap..
When need help with something..i will always be here to help you..or to teach you what i know..
When you feel cold..i will always be here with arms open..to warm you..
When your climbing a hill that seems impossible..i will always be here for you to ride on my back..
When the road gets tough..that we can go through it together..

"If it was meant to be, God will make it happen"

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

KYCK 08 was an awesome experience, those who missed out..*shakes head*

We've got a group of around 20 people to go up Katoomba for the weekend for the yearly kyckstart conference. For many..we may feel like oh..its just another year at kyck..God's going to do great things to "new christians"..for others..its sort of like..the "been there done that" experience..but this year..it was different for me

As you may have already heard the song that is playing in the background..its called Everything by Lifehouse..I could say its the sort of music only a few people appreciate..but i really like it..and if you scroll to the end you will see a youtube video..
It's a skit that was performed at kyck 08..and..a really touching skit..
There isnt any exciting backflips in the skit..no special effects..just plain..explaination..

I cannot describe to you the skit..so i guess you've pretty much have to watch it yourself..

Man-Of-The-Year

Many of us look forward to receiving our yearly copy of the "Times" magazine and finding out..person of the year..or man of the year..

I think the man-of-the-year shouldnt be the person who earnt the most money in 2008..or got Best-Seller and selling the most amount of books..or even..the most intellectual man of the year..

Why do i say that? As much as..these people influence the society..and many times bring good chances..its..temporary..it only happened in that year..

So who would i vote to receive the Man-Of-The-Year award?
I'll give you my answer...
My dad

My dad..he didn't give birth to me..didn't breastfeed me..but did everything else in his ability to help me grow. He went to lengths and limits probably no many other fathers would go..to make sure i was having enough to eat and wear.

When i came to this world..1991..my dad was earning 800 dollars a month..
That 800 dollars was to cover almost everything..including keeping me and my mum alive..
Eventhough he didnt have the best car..he did in all his ability to take me for evening rides on his motorcycle..
We didn't have a plasma tv or home surround-sound system..but he did in all his ability to take me to the park..hanging out with me and feeding fish in the ponds..
We didnt have lobster or abalone every meal..but he did in all his ability to provide me with the best food he was able to get his hands on..
We didn't get to go to spa's and have massages..but he would bath me when i was a baby..making sure not one drop of shampoo would go into my eyes..

In primary school..i didn't start off having the luxury of owning a mechanical pencil..he would spend the night before..sharpening my pencils..making sure they were enough for me to use..
I didn't get tutoring till later in the years..he would spend nights with me..making sure i knew how to solve every maths equation that was on the paper..eventhough there were times he himself didnt know..he would find out..
I would have high fevers in the middle of the night..he would get up and drive me to a clinic straight away..making sure i was okay..

Now..despite being a busy man..he takes time..talking to me..telling me his worries..and asking about mine..
Sharing his troubles..and making sure i didn't have any..
Asking me for solutions to problems..and making sure mine were solved..
Looking for word definitions..and making sure i wasnt illiterate..
I would have trouble in school..he would do his best to find a solution..might that be changing schools..he would take the effort..might that be applying for a scholarship..he would take the effort..might that be eating up the families savings..he would risk it..

He has been one of the biggest positive influence in my life..
Teaching me right and wrong..needs and wants..success and failure..
A man of integrity who respects everyone..gives without expecting a return..
Never afraid of helping others even when he needs help himself..always putting others infront of him..

Despite starting off poor..my mum still loved him..
Dad has shown me how to treat women in a proper way..sure my parents have had disputes and arguments..but dad has shown me a great example on how to solve this matters in the right way..showed me that men are no better than women..but all are equal and should be treated equally..to stay true to that one female and that one female only..no matter what happens..

For many years in my life i have been ignorant about the blessing that i have been given upon...but now..i really see..the reason who i am today..is because of my dad..

Dad..your the best =]

girls..and money

There are many things in life that can ruin relationships between "brothers"
2 of the main ones..are girls..and money..

There's these 2 really close friends ive gotten along with very well in the past few weeks..and established a really good relationship..we know each other as brothers..and treat each other that way as well..
I don't feel like mentioning names..so lets call them A and B..this is what happened to them in the past few days..that absolutely ruined our relationship..

One day A tells us..hey guys..theres..this..girl..
So obviously we feel happy for him..and ask him questions..and so on..we try to find out more information about her..know what she's like..and later did i know..that girl is from my church..and i know her..fairly well..how convenient =]
We get her msn..and start talking to her..seeing what she's like..and things like that..
She pops up in our conversation many times and we always ask A how's things going with her and things like that..and B wondered if he could see what she looked like..
So one sunday..all 3 of us are at church..they kind of talk to her..but the bad part was..the girl had a better impression of B..
Girl keeps mentioning B to A everytime they talk..which sort of makes A feel bad..so one day..A walks up to B and says..hey dude..because we're so close..if you like the girl..ill step back..i don't want to start a fight between us over her..
B's like nah man..you can go for her..since you like her..
Despite that..B still talked to the girl..and got along very well..as..friends..( or so we thought )

Beginning of holidays..A and the girl said..lets go out together..grab Elliot and B together..A quickly said yes..and told us to tag along..we happily followed =]
We went karaoke..had some fun..but it was a bit awkward..because since i was closer to the girl..i was talking to her and her friends more than A or B..but since i was closer to her..it was..natural..i didn't have intentions..just..hanging out..

Because it was the holidays..i rarely got to see A or B that often..because they were always out and i was always at home being lazy..
One particular day..A walked home..looking really depressed..stopped eating..and stayed in bed for ages..i asked him whats wrong..and the typical answer: oh nothing..just a bit tired..im like ok..fair enough..im here if you need to talk..
His depressing mood carried on for a few days and eventually i got sick of it..i confronted him..but got no information..

Few nights later..girl talks to me..asking how is A doing..im like he looks really depressed..and i even ask her whats going on..she said..she's trying to find out too..and saying that he wont talk to her..
Occasionally when im in A's room..the girl would chat with him but he would just close the window..and do other things..i find that weird..so i started to talk to the girl..
Girl wont provide any information either..saying it's really complicated..yadayada..
That night i went out..got home..and found A just got home from somewhere as well..i go online..and eventually forced out something out of her..knowing that she lied to A..saying she went shopping with her friends..when she actually went out with someone..
So i just thought..ok..that is bad..but i didnt ask more..
Literally few seconds later..B calls me..constantly repeating the sentence "i feel guilty for doing this to A"..he keeps repeating it..and eventually im like STFU!! and tell me whats happening!!
He says..its the girl..now in my head..i was thinking..OH SHIT!! because the girl said something about going out with someone..

So i asked for details..
This is what ive been told..
Before we all went out to karaoke..B and the girl had already been out together alone for a few times..and one of those times..the girl asked B to go out with her..for some stupid reason..B says yes..

Background on B:
B is new from China..and was initially in a gang..now we all would assume gang members talk a lot about loyalty to your brothers..and 意氣

So anyways B says yes to her..WITHOUT TELLING US!! well not telling me is fine..but not telling A..*sigh*

I asked B how A found out..he said..oh..me and the girl went out..the same day A went out..and A saw us together..
My first reaction ._.

Now everyone's not talking..and it's annoying the hell out of me..you've got any suggestions on how to fix things....tell me..=]

Quietly...

Walking down the quiet streets..
Watchin the grey sky with cars just simply passing by..
I turn my back around to see if your there..
Wonder if you really care..

I close my eyes to imagine your here..
Your absence really brings me fear..
Being with you is just like standing on a hill..
Looking down on everything and feeling a happy thrill..

Quietly as you walk on that bus..
I'm really hoping that you will trust..
That ill always be there for you..
And will always stay true..

Quietly as you walk away..
Eventhough im hoping you to stay..
Thinking of that beautiful smile on your face..
That can never be erased..

Loneliness has lost its place from the start..
From the moment you appeared in my heart..
Feeling your heartbeat, and watching you eat..
Makes me want to jump up and down on my feet..

Despite the falls that we've had..
And all the times we've been sad..
Remember that im here..
Even to wipe your tears..

Quietly as i hold you in my arms..
Feeling really calm..
Hoping that the decision you made..
Will never fade away..

Quietly with you holding my hand..
As i..making a stand..
That ill protect you no matter battle or war..
Because i know..what i'll be fighting for..

"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing."

Sunday, rainy..
Can't help but think of your smile.. (If your reading this..remember..don't be sorry =] )

Sometimes in life you'll face things you hate to do..washing the dishes..putting the clothes on the line..being a support hero on dota..taking out the trash..or stuff like that..I personally hate it..but ive learnt that i HAVE to do it..especially sometimes when you random heroes on dota..you dont have a choice..
Since sometimes you have no choice..why not try putting some fun into it? Instead of whinging about it and thinking of a thousand reasons why NOT to do it..don't waste your time..and get the job done..=]

People who whinge
I bet we all know people around us who whinge..and face it..as much as we "love" them..we hate them..every single aspect of their lives..they whinge..they have a cry about everything..the weather, the public transport, the water their drinking, the amount of "stress" their undergoing..
Many of these people dont know what kind of luxury their living in..
I hear my old school mates saying.."I hate the Australian government, they suck! Public transport is terrible and they dont give us enough financial help through centrelink"
1) Your bloody lucky to have public transport

This is what you have

This is what others have (This picture cracks me up)

2) Your parents dont even work and contribute to the society..what makes you think the government should give your family financial aid? It really gets me..people work hard..pay their taxes..just others can live on the dole?!

We're working hard..so others can live at home..getting their..400 dollars a week for rent and food? And YOU complain about living in a unfair society when YOUR the one receiving literally free money off the government?

ridiculous

Get a job..pay your taxes..pay your train tickets..that way the government actually HAS money to upgrade their services? And maybe through that..our society can have a change

"What heights of love, what depths of peace,When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!My comforter, my all in all—Here in the love of Christ I stand."

"God's timing vs. My timing"

First weekend of the holidays..
Filled with..sadness?..but also happiness?
I learnt the lesson of..patience and timing =] probably the hard way..but really learn to know that God's timing may not always be my timing
Sometimes plan doesnt catch up fast enough with change..計劃沒有變化快
Happiness is not something adapted instantly..real happiness comes with the struggle of attempting to achieve it..and many times..the happiness comes from the stages of achieving happiness..not the achievement itself..i guess in life..all sunny skys and no rain makes it a desert..
Dissapointment normally comes with other surprises as well..amazing what life can throw at you in an instant..dissapointment may just lead to other doors..sometimes dissapointment is part of the master picture..we normally strive to find that one piece to fix up the puzzle when later we find out we found the wrong piece
What makes a man strong?..a very often used quote "If it doesnt kill you, it'll make you stronger" I'm not talking about physical strength..im talking about being able to handle dissapointment..many people give up in life when an emotional wall stands in their way..but i guess what makes a strong man is being able to give that wall a jumping side kick and move on..sometimes your goal is only a metre away from that mile and all you have to do is break that wall..climb over it..or maybe just go around it..
Everyone struggles with dissapointment and let downs and it all comes down to how you handle it..you could..sob..feel sorry for yourself and miss out the great things in life..or you could think positive of the situation..and discover some amazing things.."Every cloud has a silver lining"
No matter how bad a situation is there always has to be a [+] in it
While your reading this..are you noticing the words more? or the white background that is provided? That situation might just be the words written here..while positivity is like the white background..filling up the whole page waiting for you to take notice of it..

"In Christ alone my hope is found;He is my light, my strength, my song; This cornerstone, this solid ground,Firm through the fiercest drought and storm."

Till I Collapse

Cause sometimes you just feel tired..
You feel weak..
And when you feel weak..
You feel like you wanna just give up..
But you gotta search within you..
You gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse..

Great words by the great eminem =]
Adv English, Adv Maths and Studies of Religion owned me today..aboriginals..the "dreaming" -.-
Did you know they believe that landscapes of the earth is shaped up my spirits that roamed the earth? And that contraception is not possible without a spirit entering the women's womb..how bizarre!!!

I think i failed maths..like every other time..=[ anyone else reading this agrees that [x] shouldnt be a number? and should forever remain an alphabet? I don't recall using the quadratic formula at a local shopping centre or finding the square root of the price of an apple..=[ But as an asian..i guess i HAVE to study maths..or my ancestors will abandon me..foreveer..

English was terrible, ran out of time..cause i got too carried away with my story about a boy learning kung fu..
Change..what a bizarre topic..so broad and vast..

Well its Ancient History tomorrow..got to cramp a 500 word essay before i walk into the hall =]

"But if you remain in me and my words remain in you, you may ask for anything you want, and it will be granted!" John 15:7

Love is patient, love is kind, love means slowly losing your mind

Woke up 5:30am this morning for school..told myself i would go to school last night eventhough today was going to be my day off because of exams..woke up..and thought..wouldnt it be a good idea..to stay at home to "study"..did what my heart told me..absolutely bad move!!!
Got up and decided to relax..and watch a movie..27 dresses =] thats where i got the title for the blog..not exactly a guy movie..but was really enjoyable

So right after that..decided to go down to East Hills to see some old friends and to "study" at the library there..again..BAD MOVE!!
Amazing how there could be a thousand reasons out there TO study..you know..the usual asian stuff..study so you get a good job..be a doctor..lawyer..but i found out that there could be a MILLION reasons NOT TO study..quite interesting really =]
So i got down there..and met up with Fondson and his girlfriend and hung out for awhile..talking about the good times we've had and stuff..after that the rest of the boys got out of school and we just hung out for awhile..that process went on for about 3 hours
Around 3pm i decided i REALLY had to study..or else i would die a painful death..so i walked into the library..got my books out..got my glasses out so that i could look a bit more intellectual..and started doing maths..great subject..but too bad i hate it
I managed to do the first 5 questions easily..like no hassle at all..but after that..i struggled..=[ around 3:30..i decided to go home..and ask Jay how to do it..
Got home..played dota..18 kills no deaths..but i feel a physical death coming my way T_T

So now..im going to work =] study hard..and hopefully not fail my adv eng, adv math and studies of religion exam tomorrow =]

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depends on your own understanding . Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." Proverbs 3:5-6

First Day as a Blogger

Hey all
7th of April 2008, half way through my half yearly exams and decided to procrastinate by making a blog. Always thought blogging was for nerds, but ive learnt to not judge things without trying it...so here i am =]

48th day my parents have been away overseas..amazing how time flies..i guess its just school work that has been keeping me constantly busy. Its been great living with my friend Jay and his family, i guess another reason why i haven't been feeling really lonely is cause through these long weeks Jay has been pretty much like a brother to me. He's really watched out for me and..likewise =]

Every weekend we would go back to my place to hang out and spend the weekends there. I remember once going back home alone because Jay was spending the weekend with his school friends..amazing how silence can be so loud and defeaning..being able to hear the raindrops and the clock ticking without any other noise disruptions made me feel..as if the world was absolutely empty..walking into my parents room and seeing their bed and my sisters cradle made me feel emotionally ran over by a truck..looking into that wardrobe mirror and just looking at the reflection of myself..as if i was the only person that was alive..

So i ran out of the room and decided to put some music..up loud..so drown off these thoughts...but in my head..not being able to hear my sisters whinging somehow made me feel incomplete..really regretting those days when i wished my sister was locked in a box. Not being able to hear the sound of my dads loud mouse..clicking away and the sound of the water running in the kitchen with my mum constantly cleaning..a W0AH feeling
Worst part was when dinner time came =_= i had to cook stuff myself..not that i dont ever do it..im just not used to cook without mum beside me telling me that ive put in too much salt or oil..so as a result..i turned to instant noodles =] they never let you down

But besides that particular weekend i dont recall feeling lonely or down..mainly cause of my friends around me..some have made me laugh..smile..cared for me..talking to me..or even just being there for me..you guys know who you are..and thanks alot =]

Well first day as a blogger has come to an end..with the reason being that dinner is ready..and im hungry =]

"So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today…" - Matthew 6:32